nostalgia

It's midnight, and I actually planned to study pengajian am, but then I was bored so I tuned on to blog and read my posts years ago.

I missed how I used to blogged small things and record moments of my school life.

I remembered places I had went with my friends and movies we had watched together.

We were so free back then, and we had done so many silly things together <3

I miss you guys so much, like really.

So halfway reading, I've found some pictures :D

so, here's to you, sweetie. 

look at our child-like faces once upon a time XD

pre-exam period

10/11

Hi. It’s November already. A year has almost passed.
Next week, I’ll be sitting for the first term STPM 2015.
I’m not holding much hope since obviously I’m not putting enough effort.
I don’t know what would I do in the future?
Go for nursing? Or just keep going on until Term 3?
I really have no idea.
Life’s seems like a flash.
You are not doing anything, yet it’s gone, just like that.
Whatever I do now, I just hope I wouldn’t regret in the future.
All I wish is a better life for my family, and that everyone of us is healthy and happy.
That’s all. As simple as that.

God, please lead me. Lead me through this storm of chaos and reach peace.

October 2014

Helo sweets!

In a flash, October is here!
Last week, I attended the school examination prayer at St Thomas Cathedral.
Although I'm not a christian, and am not planning to become one, I also believe in your God ok.
Thanks God for sending me a bunch of crazy nice friends which help me a lots throughout this half year of Form Six.
Starting this week, we would be doing the morning prayer everyday.
It's good, I've always believe in the power of beliefs.
One who has strong faith in their believes would not fall easily.

I'm starting to adapt myself to this new studying environment. Finally getting used to the hectic pace.
I'm lucky though to have Jayne again as my classmate.
She's a real easygoing person, and at times her craziness makes my boring life a little more cheerful.

I dunno why but this year seems like a very bad year.
You see, before, I never knew anything about death and sickness and accidents.
Don't get me wrong, of course I know the meanings, I know these things happen EVERYDAY, but they never got so close to my life, until this particular year.

A handful of people I knew had passed away in this very year. Before, I had never witnessed things like this. The passing of my grandfather had a great impact on my life.
And now, Cikgu William is back to God also.

We could never change fate, nor avoid death. But we could, always, learn to cherish life and appreciate people around us, so that when the day come, we leave no regrets behind.

Let us pray that the souls would rest in peace and live happily in eternity.

First camping trip.............

Hello sweetheart! I know you are here :) So, let me update you with my recent life. First of all, I’ve went to the PUB for the first time in my life. Mind you, it’s not the PUB you thought, PUB actually means Perkhemahan Unit Beruniform! HAHAHAHA Typical St Tom.

 *St Tom is really different from KHS. And part of me still don’t feel like a Thomian. Anyway, the school is special in its own way. For one thing, the prefects check our NAILS everyday instead of our pockets. WOW. I was feeling unbelievable at first... But now I got used to it. I still think it’s a pretty weird thing. Nevermind this now, I guess I would write about my new school in the next post :P *

 So, back to PUB. The first day of camp was pretty good. I had friends going with me ( Chin Boon and 5 new friends YAY ) and we were sharing the same camp.( great, at least not somebody I don’t know) We had troubles setting up our tent though( it was our first time sleeping outdoor in a tent HAHA) so we had the other guys from KRS( Kadet Remaja Sekolah ) helped us.

Then, we were given a long and boring briefing( and yes, I did sleep off the briefing hahaha ). We were separated and assigned into a group. I was Group 10. Here’s the great part- I was grouped with SC and his buddy AC hahaha both guys were considered hot in our class :P And I had Chang Hung with me. Yea, at least someone I know.

At four that afternoon, we jogged to the Reservoir Park( it is located just behind/beside our school ) for the JUNGLE TREKKING activity. ( mind you, I would call that PARK TREKKING XD ) Then all ten groups gathered at the front pavement for another short briefing on the activity. Here’s what shocked me MOST:
SC asked me whether I’m feeling okay and gave me a thumb up! LIKE SERIOUSLY, we’ve never talked and I was stunned at that moment! Awwwww how friendly! How nice! ( ps. That was the moment I realized his cuteness hahahahaha ) Of course I answered handsomely that I was okay. HEHEHEHE
Then AC turned and said, YOU WERE THE ONE WHO ALWAYS SLEEP DURING ROLECALL IN CAMP RIGHT? Now now, this shocked me even more.
For your information, AC and I went to the same NS camp. But I never thought he would even recognize me LOL like seriously,
So for the rest of the day I couldn;t help but peek at SC hahahaha PSPSPSPS *blush*

JUNGLE TREKKING- It was actually sort of like Running Man or something ( the committees must be RM fans. ) There were five stations ( with very very perverted games ) : throwing and catching water balloons, crawling on muds, transport a soft drink can by using a strip of spaghetti and your mouth ONLY, eating RAW garlics and onions, and finding strings.
A round of applause for me for crawling on mud HANDSOMELY hahahaha :P
As for the water balloon games, that was fun. I was splashed with water straight on my face because the balloon burst!!!!!!!! and SC was the the thrower ( ................... )


The second day wasn;t as good. BUT, Jayne and I found a cute boy! And he is SC the junior hahahahaha! Mind you, he’s so handsome with his single earring OH GOD. So cute! ( my taste seems to favor those with cute small eyes HAHAHA macam JunHo lahhhh )

 Now I look forward to going school everyday! So I guess PUB wasn’t that bad after all ( even though I had the worse sleep that night! ) But it’s totally worth it HOHOHO

CUTE GUYS ROCK! :D
HAVE FUN FLOWERING <3

August!

Hello!
Sorry for not cleaning up for a long time!
Life's been busy, what with all those assignments, exams, co-curriculum activities and lotsa stuff!

So, Kuching Festival 2014 is opened for 2 weeks ( or is it 3 weeks?) now, and I've went there quite a handful of times with my friends.
I found nothing special yet, but I just loveeee viewing FOOD!

My father's friend treated us to a seafood dinner the other day at the newly opened GEYLANG.
We had salted egg buttered crabs,stir-fried bittergourd with pork, satay, prawns and more!
The food was yummy! THUMBS UP! *finger licking good*

I've scored badly in my first test. Failed three subjects. But the other two got 70 and above! That really made my day :D

I guess it's time to really gear up?
NO. ENJOY LIFE FIRST!

WORK HARD, PLAY HARD.

Start everyday with a new hope, leave bad memories behind & have faith for a better tomorrow.

哈咯
好久不见
因为闲得很，所以就上来清理清理一下这里的灰尘（窃笑
其实也不是很闲啦，只是很懒惰，所以就。。。。。。。（N件事情等着我去做
 最近开始有点闷，班上都没有很好的朋友，所以对于去学校一事真的是千万个不愿意啊
喵喵，林同学，郭屁孩，乔治，柱子，搞笑的小扬，我真的超级超级大家一起上课的日子。
你们是最棒的！（鼓掌
现在这个班，唉，怎么说呢
大家都很拼，所以我这个懒散的人显得格格不入。尤其我又经常在状况外，所以有时会感觉到朋友明显的pek chek
说话的语气也开始锋利起来（好伤啊

我知道读书重要，只是我认为读书不是我人生中唯一重要的事。
人家不常说‘事业爱情两兼顾’吗？
读书也一样呗！
有时我觉得自己像旁观者一样，在旁边看着他人的忙碌。
不免替他们感到悲哀
 就算让你们考到4 flat又怎样？
其实不知不觉中你已失去了其他重要的人事物，比如：朋友
难道忙到连几个小时都抽不出来给身边的至亲吗？
不要回答我说等考试后
那些都是废话
 这个考试完了，下一个考试也接连着来，
那几时才能相聚？
任何感情都是需要持续关心和真心来维系的
不是等你们需要友情/爱情/亲情时才来找人，倒时就太迟了

我想我永远融入不了你们的群里，因为我们人生观不同。
我读书，但我的时间不会天天被学业占据。
因为我的生命里还有重要的亲人、朋友、和我依然在找寻着的快乐。
我不愿等，因为今日不知明日事，谁知道我们哪天就看不到明日的太阳了
我们应该好好的把握每一天，不是吗?

子欲养而亲不待

公公于2014年4月10日，安详的离开了我们。

公公，你的离去，带给家里人的打击不小。但是往好的方面来说，你终于解脱了。

不必再受病魔的折磨，不用再忍受洗肾的痛，不再在人间受苦。

这些年来，你从小做到老，只为维持家里的经济，成天担心儿孙吃不饱穿不暖，你真的辛苦了。

记忆中的你是多么的慈祥。虽然保守了一点，但是你却很会和我们交谈开玩笑。

你做事总规规矩矩，教导我们华人的传统。

（但是你的后事却办得草率，虽然我心有怨言，却无能为你做什么。）
虽然我一直不了解你的宗教，但是我是那么的相信你。因为我知道你不会欺骗我们，更不会对不起我们。
我很遗憾，没在你在世时多为你做点什么，多陪陪你，希望你不会怪我。
如今你唯一的牵挂应该是婆婆吧！我会尽量抽空去陪陪她老人家。

今天已是你走后的第101天（20/7/2014），但是一切有如一场梦，至今踏入屋里，还是有点不敢相信，你已经不在了。
还记得你晚上吃饱后最喜欢坐在客厅看电视，偶尔我们去你就陪我们聊几句，睡前偶尔会吃点宵夜。你最喜欢吃果条了。

公公，如果你在天有灵的话，希望你可以保佑婆婆一直早日康复，子孙事事顺利平平安安。
原谅我的不孝，无法出席你的头七、七七、百日祭典。

FORM SIX

FORM SIX/STPM.
Something that everybody would try to avoid. But usually due to two reasons, people has no choice but go for it.
First reason, lack of financial support to go to University/collge.
Second reason, you just don't know what to do.
So, I've go for Form 6, and my reasons are the both of the above.

First few days were real bad.
Everybody is like one or two chapters ahead of us and I was always so blur about what to do.
You should keep in mind that Form 6 is very very very different from Form 5.
It's a lot's TOUGHER, and the whole term is very packed with lots of topics to cover.
We will be having out first public test early November, so the teachers are all rushing through the syllabus hoping that we could make it before the August mock exam.
So, it was quite a hard life for lazy bugs like myself to try to be hardworking and catch up.
There are so many things to learn and to do.
Every few days the teachers will ask us to stay for extra class.
Then, we have co-curriculum activities two days a week.
Which left us about only one afternoon free.
So everyday is tiring and busy.
I am dreading on everyday.
SUFFERING.

My chemistry teacher is the worst of all.
The first lesson and she was already picking on my chemistry knowledge.
which left me real stress every chemistry lessons.
I can't afford to make mistakes, because she would be looking on me.

就算你再努力，恐怕连C都考不到。I would be really happy if you get a C.

FUCK?
Then she said this

Maybe you should consider taking courses like SECRETARY COURSE or some sort of EVENT ORGANIZING course.

Like seriously? I'm not bragging or what but THERE ARE LIKE THOUSANDS OF STUDENTS OUT THERE WHO GOT EVEN WORSE GRADE FOR THEIR SCIENCE SUBJECTS AND THEY ARE TAKING SCIENCE STREAM ALSO so why should I give up?

我知道我有点心高气傲but so what?!
我认为我有这样的能力 ok'

不要heng heng给我考到 C以上， 不然你就真的是狗眼看人低了fk

2014

The financial crisis in my family has been an opening to a new chapter in my life.

Life harsh. But we continue to live on full will. Never showing any sign of weakness.

Other members in dad's family had been completely disappointing. I've always wondered if they really understood the meaning of 'family', or is it MONEY itself is their one and only family?