11.11.16

Hello BRIDGET IS BACK!

Like seriously, after so many years, I finally remember my email and manage to sign in back sobs.

It has been such a long time since my last update, and yes, I know most people has moved to other platforms like dayre, or they don't even blog anymore.

I dno how or why but blogging seems like a very long time ago thing. It's just no 'IN' anymore.

Me myself have switch to dayre eversince the app is created. And sure, it's more or less like blogging but, we will not be able to revisit the page after a year. 

I hope I can continue my passion for blogging :D

nostalgia

It's midnight, and I actually planned to study pengajian am, but then I was bored so I tuned on to blog and read my posts years ago.

I missed how I used to blogged small things and record moments of my school life.

I remembered places I had went with my friends and movies we had watched together.

We were so free back then, and we had done so many silly things together <3

I miss you guys so much, like really.

So halfway reading, I've found some pictures :D

so, here's to you, sweetie. 

look at our child-like faces once upon a time XD

pre-exam period

10/11

Hi. It’s November already. A year has almost passed.
Next week, I’ll be sitting for the first term STPM 2015.
I’m not holding much hope since obviously I’m not putting enough effort.
I don’t know what would I do in the future?
Go for nursing? Or just keep going on until Term 3?
I really have no idea.
Life’s seems like a flash.
You are not doing anything, yet it’s gone, just like that.
Whatever I do now, I just hope I wouldn’t regret in the future.
All I wish is a better life for my family, and that everyone of us is healthy and happy.
That’s all. As simple as that.

God, please lead me. Lead me through this storm of chaos and reach peace.

October 2014

Helo sweets!

In a flash, October is here!
Last week, I attended the school examination prayer at St Thomas Cathedral.
Although I'm not a christian, and am not planning to become one, I also believe in your God ok.
Thanks God for sending me a bunch of crazy nice friends which help me a lots throughout this half year of Form Six.
Starting this week, we would be doing the morning prayer everyday.
It's good, I've always believe in the power of beliefs.
One who has strong faith in their believes would not fall easily.

I'm starting to adapt myself to this new studying environment. Finally getting used to the hectic pace.
I'm lucky though to have Jayne again as my classmate.
She's a real easygoing person, and at times her craziness makes my boring life a little more cheerful.

I dunno why but this year seems like a very bad year.
You see, before, I never knew anything about death and sickness and accidents.
Don't get me wrong, of course I know the meanings, I know these things happen EVERYDAY, but they never got so close to my life, until this particular year.

A handful of people I knew had passed away in this very year. Before, I had never witnessed things like this. The passing of my grandfather had a great impact on my life.
And now, Cikgu William is back to God also.

We could never change fate, nor avoid death. But we could, always, learn to cherish life and appreciate people around us, so that when the day come, we leave no regrets behind.

Let us pray that the souls would rest in peace and live happily in eternity.

First camping trip.............

Hello sweetheart! I know you are here :) So, let me update you with my recent life. First of all, I’ve went to the PUB for the first time in my life. Mind you, it’s not the PUB you thought, PUB actually means Perkhemahan Unit Beruniform! HAHAHAHA Typical St Tom.

 *St Tom is really different from KHS. And part of me still don’t feel like a Thomian. Anyway, the school is special in its own way. For one thing, the prefects check our NAILS everyday instead of our pockets. WOW. I was feeling unbelievable at first... But now I got used to it. I still think it’s a pretty weird thing. Nevermind this now, I guess I would write about my new school in the next post :P *

 So, back to PUB. The first day of camp was pretty good. I had friends going with me ( Chin Boon and 5 new friends YAY ) and we were sharing the same camp.( great, at least not somebody I don’t know) We had troubles setting up our tent though( it was our first time sleeping outdoor in a tent HAHA) so we had the other guys from KRS( Kadet Remaja Sekolah ) helped us.

Then, we were given a long and boring briefing( and yes, I did sleep off the briefing hahaha ). We were separated and assigned into a group. I was Group 10. Here’s the great part- I was grouped with SC and his buddy AC hahaha both guys were considered hot in our class :P And I had Chang Hung with me. Yea, at least someone I know.

At four that afternoon, we jogged to the Reservoir Park( it is located just behind/beside our school ) for the JUNGLE TREKKING activity. ( mind you, I would call that PARK TREKKING XD ) Then all ten groups gathered at the front pavement for another short briefing on the activity. Here’s what shocked me MOST:
SC asked me whether I’m feeling okay and gave me a thumb up! LIKE SERIOUSLY, we’ve never talked and I was stunned at that moment! Awwwww how friendly! How nice! ( ps. That was the moment I realized his cuteness hahahahaha ) Of course I answered handsomely that I was okay. HEHEHEHE
Then AC turned and said, YOU WERE THE ONE WHO ALWAYS SLEEP DURING ROLECALL IN CAMP RIGHT? Now now, this shocked me even more.
For your information, AC and I went to the same NS camp. But I never thought he would even recognize me LOL like seriously,
So for the rest of the day I couldn;t help but peek at SC hahahaha PSPSPSPS *blush*

JUNGLE TREKKING- It was actually sort of like Running Man or something ( the committees must be RM fans. ) There were five stations ( with very very perverted games ) : throwing and catching water balloons, crawling on muds, transport a soft drink can by using a strip of spaghetti and your mouth ONLY, eating RAW garlics and onions, and finding strings.
A round of applause for me for crawling on mud HANDSOMELY hahahaha :P
As for the water balloon games, that was fun. I was splashed with water straight on my face because the balloon burst!!!!!!!! and SC was the the thrower ( ................... )


The second day wasn;t as good. BUT, Jayne and I found a cute boy! And he is SC the junior hahahahaha! Mind you, he’s so handsome with his single earring OH GOD. So cute! ( my taste seems to favor those with cute small eyes HAHAHA macam JunHo lahhhh )

 Now I look forward to going school everyday! So I guess PUB wasn’t that bad after all ( even though I had the worse sleep that night! ) But it’s totally worth it HOHOHO

CUTE GUYS ROCK! :D
HAVE FUN FLOWERING <3

August!

Hello!
Sorry for not cleaning up for a long time!
Life's been busy, what with all those assignments, exams, co-curriculum activities and lotsa stuff!

So, Kuching Festival 2014 is opened for 2 weeks ( or is it 3 weeks?) now, and I've went there quite a handful of times with my friends.
I found nothing special yet, but I just loveeee viewing FOOD!

My father's friend treated us to a seafood dinner the other day at the newly opened GEYLANG.
We had salted egg buttered crabs,stir-fried bittergourd with pork, satay, prawns and more!
The food was yummy! THUMBS UP! *finger licking good*

I've scored badly in my first test. Failed three subjects. But the other two got 70 and above! That really made my day :D

I guess it's time to really gear up?
NO. ENJOY LIFE FIRST!

WORK HARD, PLAY HARD.

Start everyday with a new hope, leave bad memories behind & have faith for a better tomorrow.

哈咯
好久不见
因为闲得很，所以就上来清理清理一下这里的灰尘（窃笑
其实也不是很闲啦，只是很懒惰，所以就。。。。。。。（N件事情等着我去做
 最近开始有点闷，班上都没有很好的朋友，所以对于去学校一事真的是千万个不愿意啊
喵喵，林同学，郭屁孩，乔治，柱子，搞笑的小扬，我真的超级超级大家一起上课的日子。
你们是最棒的！（鼓掌
现在这个班，唉，怎么说呢
大家都很拼，所以我这个懒散的人显得格格不入。尤其我又经常在状况外，所以有时会感觉到朋友明显的pek chek
说话的语气也开始锋利起来（好伤啊

我知道读书重要，只是我认为读书不是我人生中唯一重要的事。
人家不常说‘事业爱情两兼顾’吗？
读书也一样呗！
有时我觉得自己像旁观者一样，在旁边看着他人的忙碌。
不免替他们感到悲哀
 就算让你们考到4 flat又怎样？
其实不知不觉中你已失去了其他重要的人事物，比如：朋友
难道忙到连几个小时都抽不出来给身边的至亲吗？
不要回答我说等考试后
那些都是废话
 这个考试完了，下一个考试也接连着来，
那几时才能相聚？
任何感情都是需要持续关心和真心来维系的
不是等你们需要友情/爱情/亲情时才来找人，倒时就太迟了

我想我永远融入不了你们的群里，因为我们人生观不同。
我读书，但我的时间不会天天被学业占据。
因为我的生命里还有重要的亲人、朋友、和我依然在找寻着的快乐。
我不愿等，因为今日不知明日事，谁知道我们哪天就看不到明日的太阳了
我们应该好好的把握每一天，不是吗?

子欲养而亲不待

公公于2014年4月10日，安详的离开了我们。

公公，你的离去，带给家里人的打击不小。但是往好的方面来说，你终于解脱了。

不必再受病魔的折磨，不用再忍受洗肾的痛，不再在人间受苦。

这些年来，你从小做到老，只为维持家里的经济，成天担心儿孙吃不饱穿不暖，你真的辛苦了。

记忆中的你是多么的慈祥。虽然保守了一点，但是你却很会和我们交谈开玩笑。

你做事总规规矩矩，教导我们华人的传统。

（但是你的后事却办得草率，虽然我心有怨言，却无能为你做什么。）
虽然我一直不了解你的宗教，但是我是那么的相信你。因为我知道你不会欺骗我们，更不会对不起我们。
我很遗憾，没在你在世时多为你做点什么，多陪陪你，希望你不会怪我。
如今你唯一的牵挂应该是婆婆吧！我会尽量抽空去陪陪她老人家。

今天已是你走后的第101天（20/7/2014），但是一切有如一场梦，至今踏入屋里，还是有点不敢相信，你已经不在了。
还记得你晚上吃饱后最喜欢坐在客厅看电视，偶尔我们去你就陪我们聊几句，睡前偶尔会吃点宵夜。你最喜欢吃果条了。

公公，如果你在天有灵的话，希望你可以保佑婆婆一直早日康复，子孙事事顺利平平安安。
原谅我的不孝，无法出席你的头七、七七、百日祭典。

FORM SIX

FORM SIX/STPM.
Something that everybody would try to avoid. But usually due to two reasons, people has no choice but go for it.
First reason, lack of financial support to go to University/collge.
Second reason, you just don't know what to do.
So, I've go for Form 6, and my reasons are the both of the above.

First few days were real bad.
Everybody is like one or two chapters ahead of us and I was always so blur about what to do.
You should keep in mind that Form 6 is very very very different from Form 5.
It's a lot's TOUGHER, and the whole term is very packed with lots of topics to cover.
We will be having out first public test early November, so the teachers are all rushing through the syllabus hoping that we could make it before the August mock exam.
So, it was quite a hard life for lazy bugs like myself to try to be hardworking and catch up.
There are so many things to learn and to do.
Every few days the teachers will ask us to stay for extra class.
Then, we have co-curriculum activities two days a week.
Which left us about only one afternoon free.
So everyday is tiring and busy.
I am dreading on everyday.
SUFFERING.

My chemistry teacher is the worst of all.
The first lesson and she was already picking on my chemistry knowledge.
which left me real stress every chemistry lessons.
I can't afford to make mistakes, because she would be looking on me.

就算你再努力，恐怕连C都考不到。I would be really happy if you get a C.

FUCK?
Then she said this

Maybe you should consider taking courses like SECRETARY COURSE or some sort of EVENT ORGANIZING course.

Like seriously? I'm not bragging or what but THERE ARE LIKE THOUSANDS OF STUDENTS OUT THERE WHO GOT EVEN WORSE GRADE FOR THEIR SCIENCE SUBJECTS AND THEY ARE TAKING SCIENCE STREAM ALSO so why should I give up?

我知道我有点心高气傲but so what?!
我认为我有这样的能力 ok'

不要heng heng给我考到 C以上， 不然你就真的是狗眼看人低了fk

2014

The financial crisis in my family has been an opening to a new chapter in my life.

Life harsh. But we continue to live on full will. Never showing any sign of weakness.

Other members in dad's family had been completely disappointing. I've always wondered if they really understood the meaning of 'family', or is it MONEY itself is their one and only family?

Graduating.....

Hello bloggie!

I can't believe how fast time flies! ( yes, always this phrase ' time flies ' but it's true! )

In a blink of an eye, it's already the end of October.

Believe it or not, SPM is starting in 7 days! 

And of course, lazy like me ain't ready at all. Shit.

It's already 2 months since my last update, and many things had taken place.

First, I've gotten my license last month! YEAH :) 

Now I can finally drive on my own without having to rely on my parents. 

Second, two exams had passed and both were not good. 

Third, tuition ending this week. I'm so gonna miss the chit-chatting times :(

Fourth, we are graduating!!

Nonetheless, high school life has changes me a lots.

Whether it's good or bad, it's something I finally learned to cherish.

I finally realized there won't be another 5 years like this and the memories are precious enough to be remembered my whole life.

The saddest thing about graduation is losing contact with your friends.

I hate going through a new cycle of self-introduction and knowing new friends.

How I wish our friendships would maintain, even if we seldom contact. 

No words could express how I feel.

At the same time, graduating from high school also mean I'm an half-adult now.

I have to take up the responsibility of taking care of my family.

This year my family has been through a very hard time due to financial problems and I really really hope I could help lessen the burden of my parents.

But mum always insist that education is the only way to success.

My future career would considered by the salary it could offer, not the joy of it.

Currently I'm interested on two pathways, one is psychology and the other is law.

Which should I choose?

Whatever happen, I believe I could overcome it with great faith and dedication.

I only wish that Buddha would bless me and give me enough strength to overcome every obstacles in my life, and to provide my family a better life condition in the near future.

Happy Graduation and good luck in SPM :)

Seven-TEEN

 5 JULY
Hi deadly blog.
I'm officially 17 in 2 hours time. YEAH.
I'm so happy someone remembers my birthday, at least. But am also disappointed because my best friends seem to have forgotten.
Am I just so unworthy of as a friend?
Geez. Enough of this crap. Let's talk about something else.
Hari Sukan ended yesterday. My last Sports Day for High school.


4 AUGUST
Hi again! I've done a few changes to my blog. LIKEYYYYY :D
Here's a news.
I'm CHOSEN FOR THE 2014 batch PLKN/ NASIONAL SERVICE.
Thrill!
At first I was scared and not willing to go.
But after thinking again and getting advices from friends and family, I finally decided I would go!
It will be a good chance for me to do a great change to myself, physically and mentally.
So getting picked isn't that bad after all.
And geez, I'm starting my driving lessons!
It's kinda fun even though I still couldn't drive smoothly after 4 tries.
It's okay. I'm still a beginner isn;t it? hehe.
Update more later :)

After a long break from blogging

After all these years and months, I still find blogging a great comfort whenever I need to spit.

Just a few days ago, I had a quarrel with a good guy friend. I was so angered at that time that I eventually shouted a girl friend to shut up when she opened her mouth.

It was truly my fault and I apologize to her later but it seemed like she wasn't ready to forgive me yet.

I was okay with that because it was my fault and I had no one but myself to blame and she has the right either to forgive me or the other way round.

So I gave her some time to cool herself before taking the next step.

But then when I read her status at facebook, I cannot help but feel angered. 

I don't understand why the heck she felt the need to post everything there when obviously doing so doesn't help if not worsen the situation. 

Yes, you have your freedom of speech. But do you seriously believe I would befriend you again after reading your status even if you forgave me? Obviously you misunderstood the other friends and me. Accusing me of acting innocent in front of them and not understanding you at all. 

Now, I disagree with what you had to say. First, I did not do that. I did not even discuss with them about you. Syok? Next, you never give people the chance to be close to you. Even if people asked, you would just fake an answer. So why even ask?

So yes. It's a sad thing this incident broke between us.




LATEST UPDATE : Things seem to be going well again.
Until next time readers! :D

31/5/2013

Dear bloggie.

I miss you. I miss typing. I miss everything and everyone.

Life's been busy lately. I have to work every day and I have no time for my friends.
I feel bad, I feel lonely. I miss talking and laughing around with my friends.

I miss the old me. The one who was able to talk easily with people around. At least, been able to chat heartily with besties. Those were the great memories.

Life's a bitch when you are no longer a kid.

18 May 2013

Hey guys! What's up?
Oh yea. EXAMINATION MODE ON.
But I'm a little crazy over this GBA games especially Harvest Moon! Opps.
Guess I'm failing my exams AGAIN :(
Life's still the same.
Short on money. Dreading homework. Sleeping a lots.
What else?
I know. I'm not making any effort to improve life.
But what to do.
NO MOTIVATION .

I'm so envious of those fans who could go to Jay Chou's OPUS CONCERT!
If only I could go...........................

Recently things aren't going well between mum and me.
She seems to be displeased with every little mistake I do.
I felt angry and sad at the same time.
It seems like everyone in the family has a problem with me.
Now, what did I do?

Life's a mess now and I wonder when will the sun shines again.

陳凰瑜

在2009年的某一天，緣分讓我們相識。剛好你是欣蓉的朋友，又那麼剛好我和欣蓉同班，我們才有機會相識。

從那年起，我們之間就開始了很多很多的美好回憶。雖然很多事情已經不似從前，但我相信，我們一起瘋過的日子，將會是我中學裡最美好的回憶。

那些年，我們一起走路逛街。第一次，我搭上11號巴士，從學校走到肯雅蘭。從東走到西、從北走到南。

那些年，我們一起第一次去唱K。我們一起去看電影。一起去吃Madam Tang.

那些年，我們一起參加RC、一起skip RC、一起quit RC.

那些年，我們一起去Hocklee 瘋。

那些年，我們一起去游泳(我承認了！我們是去玩水哈哈）

那些年，我們一起煲電話粥，從晚上聊到天亮。一起聊八卦、聊帥哥、聊討厭的人。

那些年，我們一起追巴士。還記得我們在馬路旁一直跑一直跑，所有形象都沒有了。

那些年，我們一起在KBOX瘋狂唱歌，搗亂，發花痴。

那些年，我們一起去團拜。

這麼一想，時間真的過了挺久了的。你還記得嗎？

說來還挺慚愧，我到現在還不知道你的華文名怎麼寫。paiseh 我只知道有個芩字。

BONG, 生日快樂！17歲萬歲！

不知道你有沒有那麼一點點想念我們的過去？

Hello April

Hello April.

March holiday had just ended. I spent the whole week working and only managed to get an off day to the cinema. Watched AH BOYS TO MEN II. 

Superb. Fantastic. I'm a fans of director Jack Neo :)

I started watching his movies when I was a child. The first would be I NOT STUPID, if I weren't mistaken.

Whatever he had done can't change the fact that his movies are so touching and meaningful. Looking forward to Ah Boys To Men part III.

As you all know, exam papers were given throughout the week before the holiday had started.

I was absent for some good reasons, and I was quite nervous about the papers.

My result was overall okay, without any fail, turned out that I was lucky. * cheers *

I got 2Es. 40 for Chemistry and 41 for Additional Mathematics.

Well. I never expected higher grades for these subjects. So I am satisfied.

I got a surprised gift. I passed my Moral * thanks goodness * with a Grade C+.

I considered that as a good start. I never got higher than 45 marks for Moral.

The only subject that disappointed me was English. I did not expect to get such marks. But then it was acceptable since I just simply wrote the essay. Just a little disappointed. No big deal.

Today, I went for another movie with my sister.

THE GHOST CHILD/TOYOL.

It's a chinese movie alright, but the actors spoke a little malay in it.

Quite nice. Enough horror.

Recommended :D

It's April.

Happy Belated Day to my fellow brother Desmond, whose birthday falls on the 5th of April.

And also Happy Belated Day to my primary school girl friend Natalie, whose birthday falls on the 4th of April. 

Sweet Seventeen to both of you. I missed the old time when we would gather together at this time of the year to celebrate :)

Happy Belated Day also to my dearest cousin Daisy, who was born on the 3rd of April, 1995.

Sweet Eighteen! No longer a child! :)

Last but not least, Happy Birthday to Amelia Goh who loves red. Sweet Sixteen! I wish you a blast birthday and enjoy being sixteen. 

25/1 FRIDAY

--- CLICK NUFF ---

Hello guys!

It's another Friday. YEAH ^^

I've been getting lazier and lazier.

BUT

I'm trying hard to keep myself going.

Motivating myself now and then.

YOU HAVE COME THIS FAR, DON'T GIVE UP NOW

Yes. This is what I tell myself.

I'm not giving up now. NO WAY.

Not after I spend so many years studying.

No after my parents spend so much money on my education.

Yes. Sometimes I slow down.

I work things out slowly.

BUT

I know I'm going to reach the finishing line.

I know I can.

I CAN DO IT. 

2013年第一章

- KINDLY CLICK　NUFFNANG. -

完美並不存在 Perfect itself doesn't exist.

Greetings to Earth. It's the second week of  the new year 2013.
School turns out fine. Just a little busy and rush.
I'm still the same old me, fat and lazy.
It's the new year, and in six month's time I'm turning Seventeen.
I'm looking forward to it. Because it means I'd be legally able to drive ( not that I know how to drive :S )
Anyway, back to school.
Teachers are so far okay, so are the lessons.
At least I managed to finish most homework given, except for Mathematics and Additional Mathematics.
Additional Mathematics is really challenging. I feel so happy and satisfy whenever I solve a question correctly. Cheers hehehe.
As for Moral subject which I usually distaste, I try my best to reduce my aversion toward it, for my own good. I don't really wanna my SPM cert get ruined by Moral.
So yeah, DEFINISI, I will conquer you :P

I also try to control my temper.
Not wanting to lose any friends in this last year of school.
I still feel like a junior HAHAHA :P

I'm going to plan a few hangouts with friends.
It's predictable that after Chinese New Year no one will be able to go out anymore :(
Except for me. HEHEHE.
Thanks goodness I'm still allowed to play computer and go out once in a while.
Why once in a while? Because my mum just hates to drive me out.

I'm currently using the GOOGLE CHINESE INPUT which is kinda good.
It has Traditional Chinese Pinyin Input which other chinese word systems don't have.
So yeah. That's all for now I guess. Might blog more later. BYE

Last day of 2012

- CLICK NUFFNANG, $$ -


Annyeoung!
Actually I didn't plan to blog today, but after visiting a few blogs, I decided I might as well summarize my whole year.
This year, the year I stepped into Form 4, the year I realized luck is no longer usable in examinations.
To pass your Form 4 exams with flying colours, you really have to study hard.
This year means a lots to me.
I've grown, mentally and physically.
I've gained a few pounds, but I've also gained knowledge and lessons.
As the days passed, I learnt more and more about this world.
I learnt about difficulties of my parents.
I learnt about difficulties of others.
I learnt the difficulties of living in this cruel world.
This year has been particularly hard for my father who has to earn money for the family.
So, I pray to Buddha, may you bless my father.
And also bless others who are suffering in this world.

Form Four, I cannot say it's bad just because I got bad grades for my exams throughout the year.
I know I reap what I sow. I did not study hard, so of course I'm rewarded with lousy grades.
I won't blame.
I would like to say thank you to everyone who have or had help and treat me nicely this year, and sorry to those who I have or had scolded,  blamed and so on.
2012 is meaningful to me too, because I've gained a few good friends from class.
They've been entertaining, caring and nice to me.
They've been by my side when I've problems.
They do not look down on me because I failed in my exams. Instead, they teach and help me in my studies.
We gossip together, talk and eat inside the class, and breaking a few school rules together.
Those were memories I cherish.
Thanks thanks thanks.

Another special friend I would like to thank is Ek Ching.
Even though we aint in the same class anymore, but she still remained my best friend.
Even though we didn't have chance to talk everyday like last time, but you are still my best friend that I treasure always.
Thank you for being tolerant with me, and thank you for your treats, and thank you for your mum's tasty food. hahaha.
Millions of thanks.
May our friendship lasts.

A year has ended, and a new year is beginning.
Reading Amelia's blog reminded me of my new year's resolutions.
so here are my new year's resolutions:
- Improve my English
- Gain confidence when having conversation ( I tend to talk like noob when having conversations with strangers, supermarket promoters, etc )
- Try to have conversations in English ( I can never talk properly in English! And whenever I try, people start  throwing the ' don't show off your English okayy ' look. LOL what's wrong with speaking English? )
- Cut down a few pounds
- Try to do some exercises and revisions few times a week

I know I'm not going to fulfill them all, but I decided I might as well give myself a try.
Cheers.

Owh, there's something I would like to share.
I blogged very often and read blogs of others and I find them some blogs are just so laggy that I have to close down google chrome.
So, IF you found my blog laggy, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE inform me so I can improve. Thanks.


Lastly,

HAPPY NEW YEAR !

ANNYEONGHASAEYO 2013 :)